I've been reading an awful lot recently, in the past week i've read 2 books. The last book I read was 'The Making of Mia' by Ilana fox, and i reckon its probably the best book i've ever read. It was extremely inspiring, down to earth, fun, relatable, and a real page turner. 
I want to go down to the library straight away and see if there are any other books at the library written by her, but I think clyde forgot to leave his key for me this morning :/

the last weeks has actually been a real roller coaster. I've been trying to keep myself busy, think more about my future, and stay positive. but at night my mind fills with dread and stupid anxiety.
I keep thinking to myself about my lack of friends. i feel like i havent had fun or let myself go in so long because i've had no one to let go with. I keep worrying that sooner or later, i'll forget my youth and will never be able to have fun again. But I know thats a stupid thing to think and probably, knowing me, pretty impossible.

I've decided to replace people with books for the time being. Sad I know, but its making me feel better, and gives me something to look forwards to when i'm bored. When I read I can escape my life, and live through the mind of a fantastic character. And thats ok.

Today i cleaned Clyde's kitchen, and tidied the living room. I feel a bit groggy because I couldn't stop reading which stopped me from getting up. 
its a grey an cold day outside so I guess its not so bad that ill probably end up staying in today.

I thought I would be working at the stall tomorrow, but the way the weathers going, it doesn't seem so.

I have a wedding to go to at 3pm on Saturday, and then maybe a house party in the evening. I'm beginning to feel a twinge of excitement, rather, than being filled with dread at not having a single penny to my name. However, i'm sure i'll get by.

I managed to get a dress from Topshop for the wedding. its a beautiful multi coloured chiffon, with a ruffle at the top and could be played up to be smart or casual. It was £10 marked down from £45 so it really was a bargain.

Well, ramble over. Speak to you soon x